It’s almost time for rehearsals to begin! It’s Saturday, 5:14PM EST and I’m not going to lie, I’m missing home quite a bit. I’ve been here a little over a week and my mind has been all over the place. From dance classes, to shows, to figuring out how to live in Harlem, to making dinner and not eating out so much, and finally, to rehearsals, my brain hasn’t the time to really ground myself from the moment I landed last Thursday.
It was awesome, though, that about two days ago, Rachelle Manookian came and visited from DC! It was much needed. Familiarity goes a long way, and seeing the same people in a different state is probably not ideal, especially for me. I love me some Rachelle, not manooks, but she’s said he best herself, that she’s clingy. And I’m a person that loves to sit in my room for hours upon hours and just watch movies or tv! I don’t need company since I find the best in myself whenever I’m alone in a safe environment. :)
I can’t wait for rehearsals to begin, though. I’m excited to dive into the rehearsal with only two weeks until I leave for tech! Well, until next time!
I definitely miss my family. So much.
It’s literally 1:50 in the morning right now and I’m sitting in my bed in Irvine..probably for the last time in a long time. There are butterflies the size of Texas in my stomach because I am so nervous to be moving across the country for the National Tour of Anything Goes. I’m legit freaking out and stressed the eff out over packing, moving, and rehearsing. I haven’t even started rehearsals, but I already know it’s going to be a doozy. My brain is all over the place and I can’t even focus on one little task before jumping onto the next one. I can’t eat, either. But, I can drink!
Not going to lie, I’m a little bummed my mom won’t be taking me to the airport tomorrow and seeing me off, but what else is new? I guess I have to grow up at some point, right? Independence is key, but again, I’m so afraid of being alone. That may also be one of the reasons why I think moving to New York City with just two suitcases, a backpack, and a pair of tap shoes is probably the scariest thing to do at 22. Sure, Rachelle will be with me, but she’ll be across town and then some! I’ll be relying on my independence for most of this journey - until we start touring, that is. This month will be so much fun, but so very stressful. So very.
But anyways, I guess I’ll keep updating this tumblr throughout the process! Maybe I’ll look back and see my thoughts and think, “wow, you freaked out over nothing.” Or worse, “wow, you thought it’d be way easier.” Either way, I’m ready! There’s no going back and I’m just going to put on my big boy pants and accept the fact that I’m leaving Irvine. I’ve done what I can, for now, and I’ll be back a stronger man, mentally and emotionally.